The ways of the passive-aggressive asshole

Some bro makes small talk

2012-02-29T14:41:00.002-08:00

In class...

Brah: "I made out with a chick 2 nights ago."

Ryan: "Oh well, I made out with myself last night. You know, the imaginary me is quite the machine."

#GetAwayYouScum

Wine tasting with Mom + Buzz shopping

2012-02-20T16:25:00.000-08:00

At San Antonio Winery.....trying out a Madonna Riesling.....

Ryan: "If we ever go to a bar together, this is probably as close as it gets."

At Ontario Mills...

Ryan: "What are you looking for?"

Mom: "Something to keep me warm when I go back to Shanghai?"

Ryan: "How about this micro mini skirt? Hey, you like what I got?"

Mom: "Eh......"

Ryan: "Not so much?"

Mom: "It looks okay." (shakes her head)

Ryan: "Yea, well...you don't look that great either."

Good times.

At Owen's Bistro, Chino's biggest secret

2012-02-08T21:33:00.000-08:00

I've been busy and this night has been one of very few nights I get to have dinner with my parents nowadays. Nevertheless, we had a blast. Let me fill you in...

Mom: "This place is really nice. We might as well celebrate Valentine's tonight."

Ryan: "Sure why not. You two got engaged PREMATURELY. Might as well!"

Ask my parents for that story. ;)

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Dad: "Ryan, would you consider moving to China with us?"

Mom: (interrupts, teases) "Why? He putting a lot of effort to get rid of us!"

Ryan: (scuffs) "Yea, all of my life's work."

At the Upland German Deli, a favorite part of town

2012-02-08T12:48:00.001-08:00

Chit-chatting with Kristine and Edward, the owners, and I found out that they live one block away from me 

Ryan: “Hey, I live there too! You know, near the open fields and happy cows. The nearby prison is looking pretty good too!”

2012-02-05T18:03:00.000-08:00

Reading the label on a bottle of L'il Critter Gummy Vites...

Ryan: "Parents may give each child up to two L'il Critter Gummy Vites per day. Can I have one?"

Mom: "You're not a child!"

Ryan: "Oh, so it's for you?"

To a fervent volunteer of a spiritual, recycling association

2012-02-02T15:11:00.001-08:00

A coworker spots empty water bottles, a developing hoard, on my desk…

Margaret: “Ryan, I’ve been meaning to ask you if I could recycle those bottles for you.”

Ryan: “Oh, I recycle…in piles.” (When there’s no room left for them on my desk.)

Margaret: “I mean like I have a new use for them…repurposing. I can give them back to you tomorrow.”

(I didn’t care to ask about it but rather concede my selfish urge to dump my crap on her by replying…)

Ryan: “Oh, just keep them! They’re not very…uh…uhhhhh….personal…to me.”

Part 2

2012-01-22T14:27:00.000-08:00

James: "Is it rape if you liked it?"

Ryan: "I dunno. Maybe you should write a children's book about it."

To an eccentric professor who is very...informative

2011-10-18T23:06:00.000-07:00

At my psychological anthropology class, talking about the intersex movement...

Professor O'Rourke: "Jamie Curtis was intersex and had an ambiguous genitalia. They made her into a girl because...it was easy."

Ryan: "I can understand why. Excuse me if I squirm."

To someone who may be slightly insecure about their straightness

2011-10-12T09:29:00.000-07:00

In El Cajon with James. Some guy calls him a 'faggot' from a distance...coward.

James: "Did someone just call me a 'faggot?'"

Ryan: "I heard it too, but hey, that word describes my kind of guy." ;)

James is straight.

To a cashier who takes their sweet time on you

2011-10-01T18:10:00.000-07:00

I was preordering Dark Souls for the 360 at a Gamestop in Chino Hills. At the register, I was asked for my phone number since I was in their record, but she "forgot" it three times for...obvious reasons ;) She was friendly so I warmed up to her pretty quick.

While processing my preorder...

Cashier: "May I see your ID?" (since Dark Souls is rated M)

Is she really calling me out?

Ryan: "Yea, I put this mustache on just this morning."

We giggles and she asks for my phone number the third time which Jean-Eric, a friend, told me that was the CUE to ask for hers. Yea, if I wasn't such a lunk-head, if my favorite color wasn't 'clear' and favorite food wasn't 'mud' because that's the only food I can spell, I would have. She even "forgot" what I wanted to preorder a few times and even asked if I also wanted to preorder Rage. I paid with my debit card with the Human Rights Campaign Visa signature....probably a bad move.

I'll see her again at the release night. We'll see how it goes. ;)

To a friend being too self-conscious

2011-09-28T11:03:00.000-07:00

Mark: "You ever send out an e-mail that gets completely misunderstood?"

Ryan: "All the time."

Mark: "I think I have upset a manager in another office."

Ryan: "Just wear a cape and hold a staff to work the next day. Your manager would be more understanding."

.......

Ryan: "Just attach a photo of yourself to every email."

Mark: "Just so they know who they are dealing with."

To a coworker who is also a compulsive eBay-er

2011-09-26T16:18:00.001-07:00

We haven't talked today until...

Ben: "49 minutes!"

Ryan: (smiles) "Auction?"

Both: "Teehee."

He eBays all the time...even for some mediocre everyday stuff. He tells me he does it for the thrill. :)

To a friend who is excessively suspicious about everything

2011-09-26T16:18:00.000-07:00

The Skeptic: "You seem overly cheerful and easily amused by anything."

A Smart Person: "Different moods and attitudes leave you paying attention to certain details of your everyday life. Ultimately, you're the gatekeeper of your perception. You're missing out a lot."

To a sadomasochistic friend who is applying for med school

2011-09-23T12:43:00.002-07:00

texting

Ryan: "Good luck on your presentation tomorrow!"

Jasmine:"Hahaha thanks! Unfortunately, I would rather use that time forsecondaries (the second step in the application process). I have 17 ofthem to do now. /sadface"

Ryan: "Good luck with life then!"

To a friend who sells himself short

2011-09-23T12:43:00.000-07:00

how to turn a frown upside down...

Ryan: "Good morning, Mr. Rugged Good Looks!"

Mark: "What you say in the mirror to begin each day is none of my business."

Ryan: "Fine! My, you look like shit!!! So what's your secret?"

The Unexpected Question

2011-09-23T12:36:00.000-07:00

something I wrote in freshmen year of college...

The Unexpected Question

It was a day on the second week of my sophomore year in high school. I walked into one of the portables for my AP European History class. My AP teachers say they teach the courses at a college-level, but the classroom still made it feel like a high school class. There was the wooden globe on the bookshelf, the crummy, steel-welded chair desks, boxes of glue sticks and color markers, the same couple ditching class and making out in the corner outside, the P.E. students running by your room, and the random announcements interrupting the class. This is a familiar scene, yes?

Fourth period had started. Mr. Burrell stood firmly behind the straw-colored podium with his belly pressed against it. He was a tall, stocky Caucasian guy, fresh out of college, with combed, gelled brown hair and an earring on his left ear. As Mr. Burrell placed his plumpish hands on the wooden edges, he began the class with a question: “Who here thinks putting all the homosexuals on an isolated island is wrong?”

As a young adolescent, I began to be aware of my own discomfort at the use of stereotypes as a justification for isolating and alienating a targeted group of people. I realized how a discrediting social label can change the way an individual view themselves and how they are viewed by others. Whenever certain people were singled out for ridicule, I would have desires to beat the crap out of the harassers like they owed me money. Metaphorically speaking, I usually give a nice smack upside the head to the fool with the not-so-funny-after-all punch line. But then, there was a struggle in responding towards the twist and abuse to the cliché: a flamboyant, gay man. I did not know much about the demographic involved and I did not have a friend who was gay.

The class was hardly ever quiet, but seconds passed as the silence was broken only by the humming of the air conditioning. My hand raised on its own. It took me by surprise. My friend Jen sat behind me, looking down at her desk with her hands folded. With my right arm still frozen in the air, I turned to my fellow classmates. I realized my hand was the only one raised. I sat petrified. “So Ryan, why do you think it’s wrong?” he asked as he leaned over the podium. A chill started to trickle up my spine. My stomach felt like a giant thimble pinned with a thousand needles. My head shook unsteadily towards the question: Why did I raise my hand? Mr. Burrell leaned farther over the podium, waiting for an answer. His fingers closed around the wooden edges of the podium. Blood pounded thick in my head. I had to say something. I replied, “Um…I don’t exactly know why I raised my hand.” I was not prepared to give my reasons, but my heart knew it was wrong. Especially as a developmentally-challenged adolescent, I became frustrated with not knowing how to articulate my feelings towards such profound topics. My maturing heart was being tested, but its young conviction could not penetrate the reckless ignorance of an authority. A swarm of emotions unleashed a legion of internal vortices.

The fight beneath me enraged, as if I had woken to a thunderstorm. The cheeks rose on Mr. Burrell’s face as it shaped a dismaying smile. “Don’t be saying it’s wrong because your mom told you so,” he said, chuckling. His tone was intimidating. Everyone else sat still in their steel-welded chair desks. The gusty wind rolled the door open and sunlight spilled into the room. I looked above Mr. Burrell’s head, and then the Safe Zone sign loomed and the irony with it. Within me, the storm tossed me back down to the ground. My face was drained of expression. Trying to rally myself, I exhaled, slowed my breath, and crossed my arms. Seriously, he should not have asked that question so lightly. The homosexuals are still people. I held my body still until my heartbeat matched the rhythm of the air conditioner. Mr. Burrell continued to ask the class with more controversial questions. I cared less of what was going on. Muffled voices drifted through the humming of the air conditioner. The thunder has met its clear calm. I knew what was right and I was determined not to step out in his class again. But, I wanted to know more about my fellow human beings in the LGBT community.

Three years later. It was the weekend for some Nathan-and-me time. Nathan is a twenty-six year old gay man that I have become great friends with. He is the usual weekender who liberates me from being a couch potato in the dorms.

“Ryan, I’m gonna take you to my finest dining.”

The white, Dodge pick-up truck stopped at a red light.

Nathan had a grin on his face. “Taco Bell.”

“Really now? Well if you are, I think I’m gonna yell ‘kidnap’ out the window.”

“Die.”

Jerk.

Really, what was I getting myself into? I never thought I would have a friend like him.

2011-08-25T08:59:00.000-07:00

I spotted Mom reading on her bed and started jumping on it like I did when I was little...

Mom: "What do you want?" (out of petulant annoyance)

(Stops jumping.)

Ryan: "Nothing."

(I lie down on the other side of the bed.)

Mom: puts the Bible down onto her lap, turning her head towards me "You just want to bug me."

Ryan: (smirks) "You're the reason for living in a sense. Isn't that nice?"

2011-08-22T12:13:00.001-07:00

I was just telling Mark I couldn't watch flash at work...

Ryan: "If only porn was in html5...someone's gonna be rich."
Mark: "Or braille...someday..."

I miss my mom

2011-08-09T13:05:00.000-07:00

It was lunch time and she just returned from a trip. My mom looks into the fridge and asks...

Mom: "Son, did you make this sauce?"

(I've made plenty.)

Ryan: C'mon, Mom. You could be more specific. "Which one?"

(She pulls a bowl of sauce and shows me from a distance.)

Ryan: (smiles) "Sauce in a rice bowl? Sure, I've made one of those!" ...along with many others :P

Mom: "I think you put too much seasame oil in this one."

Ryan: "It's either 'too much' or 'too little' coming from you. You're a hard woman to satisfy."

(...though there are some good things about her pessimism. :P)

(Mom pouts and then shows her teeth at me out of petulant annoyance. )

Creeper

2011-08-04T11:53:00.000-07:00

"Joe": happy birthday ryan =]
youngdragon144: yea, i heard you the first time
"Joe": how old today?
youngdragon144: 23
"Joe": oooh, legal
youngdragon144: up yours
"Joe": whoa u top too?!
"Joe": <3<3<3
youngdragon144: i also provide castration services along with my escorting
"Joe": dude so hot
"Joe": count me in
youngdragon144: and chloroform rags as a bonus
"Joe": eff yeah
youngdragon144: why you always gotta bring up sex?
youngdragon144: we're just talking, ("Joe"). if it comes up, it's not my fault

2011-07-21T10:12:00.000-07:00

Talking with my coworker, Joe (not the same "Joe")...

Joe: "You know, some parts of China don't accept public bathrooms?"
Ryan: "Why is that? Lots of people meeting there for sex?"
Joe: "Not everyone does things your way."

2011-07-15T12:05:00.001-07:00

Talking with my younger sister...

Ryan: "Mom is so old school."
Mom: (responding as a passerby) "What did you say?"
Ryan: "I said, 'Mom is so cool.'"

Procrastination is key to inner peace

2011-07-13T07:58:00.000-07:00

With a good friend who is just finishing up on his MBA at San Diego University...

Ryan: "How's schooling?'
Mark: "Getting closer to finishing with each passing moment. Not because I have done some homework but because time is elapsing."

2011-07-08T09:07:00.000-07:00

This memory was awhile ago, but I laughed when I recalled it...in the middle of long stares while walking on Santa Monica pier. I guess It was a quiet day at the pier now that I realize it.
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At church...
Nate: "Just thought I drop by to say 'hey.'"
Ryan: (interrupts) "Alright, your job is done."
Nate: (wipes his forehead) "Whew."

You should have seen his expression.

Today's asshole is Ryan

2011-07-06T09:05:00.000-07:00

SO I made a dick joke to someone who didn't have as much fun as I did over the long weekend. (homework vs. vegas)
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As he was telling me about his weekend been taken over by schooling...

Ryan: "Well, don't worry. I took the fun for you."
(dragging myself to redemption during these few seconds of silence, realizing my own stupidity)
Ryan: (internal dialogue) I have to come up with something! "Um sooo, meaning if there's ever a serial rapist chasing after us, let me stay behind."
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Win. Today's lesson: Balance the dick jokes with some relatively decent conversation...the bad with some good. Like adding some blueberries to your 100 proof Vodka.

Part 2

2011-06-27T11:21:00.000-07:00

"Joe": hey cute boy
youngdragon144: sorry the open sign between my legs isn't lit up
"Joe": oh, that must've been the sun
"Joe": never mind

2011-06-20T09:21:00.000-07:00

I know I am a passive-aggressive asshole and sometimes I retort with some snarky comment or what I like to call 'wits edged with barbs of truth.' But, I generally enjoy anyone's company and being eccentric, trying to create situations out of anything...or create awkwardness and such fail...Also, I try to criticize through humor as much as possible. I believe humor is a huge achievement in reflecting your own life with a brighter outlook and being able to progress with no limits. So it's summer and I finally decided what to do with this blog (and other blogs currently in the making). Every now and then I'll share an episode with an embedded life lesson but I won't get preachy.
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On AIM with "Joe" (he's not out to everyone), an old friend and a huge flirt. We're just talking about my summer job as a logistics intern and how logisitics managers get paid like mad (median is 50-60/hour in California).
[09:00] youngdragon144: i'm only an intern
[09:00] youngdragon144: those guys are experienced
[09:01] youngdragon144: but there's A LOT of opportunity in logistics in LA
[09:06] "Joe": awesome
[09:06] "Joe": sounds like a great opportunity
[09:07] "Joe": for a cute kid like you
[09:09] youngdragon144: thanks but i take flattery very lightly from whores
[09:09] "Joe": wow
[09:09] "Joe": bye ryan
[09:10] youngdragon144: no need to say bye
[09:10] youngdragon144: you can just leave

I've been busy...

2011-02-21T18:04:00.001-08:00

Or maybe I should chalk up to my incessant laziness...School's been doing a good job keeping me mentally busy.

Since I've been bringing up all sorts of topics and randomness in this blog, I figure I should make multiple blogs having their own themes...I don't expect to attract a huge audience but I figure it'd be nice to be consistent and organize my ruminations/goodwill sharings of YouTube vids. I'll think about this more during the upcoming spring break.

Just a thought...

2011-01-19T11:49:00.000-08:00

How is "brainwashing" different from any form of social influence and socialization?

2011-01-01T23:51:00.001-08:00

Speaking from experience with social anxiety disorder, fear is something you have to accept (as human nature) and can't deny, but you can channel your fear and anxiety into something creative. For example, think of something funny or witty to go beyond your bitterness into positive thinking--a witty joke can even be edged with barbs of truth...to voice a legit concern in a more positive tone. If it's about stepping out of social anxiety, think of something funny or even spontaneous to say, transitioning from self-centered thinking about your fear to relational thinking to connect with others. The hard part is to accept and sustain the consequences of your actions whether or not you 'succeed,' but it makes all the difference. Struggles don't have to be perceive as failures but rather be reminders of what you value more.

2010-12-28T18:44:00.001-08:00

Yea, people should be accepting. Yes, the church should be a place where you can be transparent and put all your crap on the table. Yes, yes and yes, but they're not.

Oh btw, early happy new years! I won't have the internets for awhile. I'm still working on my next big blog post about social networking and I hope to have it finished by next Monday.

Teehee

2010-12-22T15:18:00.001-08:00

The Manatee by =Wernette on deviant ART

Random thought

2010-12-19T00:32:00.000-08:00

"There is no single best place to be raised...But one of the really good places to be raised is any place where you learn that there is no single best place to be raised." -Richard Sweder

I was born and raised in San Jose. I used to think and take pride that NorCal is full of down-to-earth people and SoCal is full of materialistic skanks, but from my experience down here, I learned it really depends on your attitude and who you run into. Humans compare things by default...it's not so much of a problem as it is human nature. Apart from bias, we can't always make firm judgments of someone's happiness or well-being.

Texting with my friend who compulsively steals

2010-12-18T11:28:00.000-08:00

Partially fiction. These are real texts but I'm only altering the context of the situation and changing the involved book titles for privacy purposes and good laughs.

So I'm in my Irvine apartment while my friend stops by my room at my parent's place...

950 AM

Can I borrow Level 26? I'll bring it back Xmas.

1031 AM

Ok I'm gonna borrow hahaha

1056 AM

(Me) No! Don't! You can borrow Dead or Alive.

1056 AM

Uhoh...I just left...............:(((

1056 AM

I'll be back Wednesday

1056 AM

Sorry!!!

1057 AM

(Me) Yea...that wasn't cool.

1058 AM

I thought you read it already. Sorry!

1059 AM

I'm headed towards Disneyland. I can meet you somewhere.

1059 AM

(Me) Yea, I'm reading it after How to Stop Your Addiction to Stealing which is what I'm reading atm. Are you leaving today?

(I ended up letting my friend borrowing it and decided to read something else. It's life. It takes all kinds of people to make a world.)

Sorry Tom Clancy, but dark psychothrillers get first dibs in my reading list. They're my thing. Don't worry, I don't own a suicide closet and I don't plan to harm myself.

One of many awesome interpretations of Radiohead's "No Surprises"

2010-12-12T10:49:00.000-08:00

"It could be applied to aging baby boomers who used to protest the government (You were so tired, happy, bring down the government, they don't, they don't speak for us) who have resignated themselves to high-stress jobs where they are subjected to heart disease or exposed to dangerous chemicals that are killing them (a job that slowly kills you), eating foods that clog their arteries and smoke and drink so that their body is full of poisons (A heart that's full up like a landfill), and they are slowly coming down with cancer, strokes, and heart attacks (some cancers have symptoms of bruises that don't go away and heart attacks and strokes can be brought on by blood clots blocking blood vessels and don't move), so they deal with businesses that poison the air (I'll take the quiet life, a handshake of carbon monoxide) such as the automobile industry. No longer arguing or protesting (Silent, silent). They may be on their death bed with a terminal disease caused by their lifestyle of the aforementioned or it could be their last time mentioning their dissent before taking in a life of pure acquiescence (This is my final fit, my final bellyache). They trade in the thrill and flavor of their life for the security of assimilation and in exchange for acceptance they get their house in the suburbs complete with a yard and 2.5 children (Such a pretty house, such a pretty garden). And they don't want any stirring up of their past excitement (No alarms and no surprises, please)." -Imani110, commenter on SongMeanings.com

Radiohead is a lyrical genius for gathering a legion of emotions into a song. That said, a song (or a poem or an inspirational quote) could be applied to many situations.

Also, watch this awesome cover by Regina Spektor. To enjoy this is to love her and Radiohead.

Side note: It's good to be back on this blog (and metacognition...nerd alert...yay for dorks). I've made 3 posts this month so far. Last month (and the few months before that) I didn't post any, so I'm ahead of my own pace. :)

Words from someone w/ social anxiety "disorder"

2010-12-10T23:09:00.000-08:00

Sometimes fear is the one to be feared, not out of resignation but to focus and resolve. It's not about your pimples, someone's bad breath, your new Mazda, or the enemy. A contrived peace can be a disguised consumption of fear. Uncertain times are difficult to ignore due to its realism. You are the gatekeeper of your own perception. Impossible? Only if you believe so.

Evaluative Research is awsum

2010-12-03T22:31:00.001-08:00

I've been neglecting you for awhile. I'll chalk it up to my incessant laziness.

Has Southwest ever cancelled your flight while you’re all hunky-dory and ready to return home? Sh*t indeed happens, but hey, you can get credit for your next ticket while Southwest Airlines dumps you in like say Philadelphia for 3 winter days. Always look on the bright side. You probably already know this, but these credit offers are actually a technique to improve and maintain customer relations. If you didn’t know that, well as I twirl my thick moustache (if I had one, I probably would) like a dork, my ‘speculative intuition’ would say these gift card/credit balance offers prime the customers’ minds to stick with Southwest, thus, spending the credit would be the behavioral reinforcement to the retained loyalty. In other words, if it weren’t for the credit offer, you’d probably ditch Southwest. Along with Southwest, online department stores like Amazon also do credit offers (along with many other “evil” techniques) for refunds and trade-ins. So it goes like this: if you’re unsatisfied with a product and then decide to return it, you’re stuck with unused store credit. You get the idea. Pretty crafty.

If that’s not news for you, well there’s actually a lot of psychological research behind all this, in improving customer relations. This would be called evaluative research which is a type of applied psychology research, especially done by big businesses. I’ll share a bit about what it is: the purpose of evaluative research is to improve, for examples, specific programs or specific product features and etc. The methods would be adequate, not “gold-plated”, but adequate enough to be done quickly and cheaply. It’s not the kind of research that’s seeking some fundamental understanding of like say happiness, adolescence or anything academic. Non-applied psychology research tends to use more elaborate methods. Jo-ann Fabrics has done their homeworks and came up with something really bizarre, but surprisingly effective. Joann Fabrics would have deals like “Buy 2 Sewing Machines and Save 10%.” Who the hell wants 2 sewing machines?! Ok...sweatshops. Maybe share the good will with a friend? Silly enough, that’s what Joann fabrics was shooting for. This taken-for-granted idea actually transforms customers into salespersons. Shockingly, this kind of offer actually boosted revenues by increasing the number of consistent customers due to the chain reaction of referrals.

A few more examples of applied evaluative research:
• Charities and Political Campaigns do research to find which appeals increase giving
• Online Newspapers and Blog sites test how different layouts increase the probability of readers clicking through to articles
• Article on business models behind social gaming:http://www.gamespot.com/news/6284524.html (The article has moral suggestions but looking at things with a moral lens is a way of getting an easy, tangible understanding of a new concept. So you don’t have to buy into all of its morals, but basically, emotion increases memory consolidation. PSA: And now you know.)

Anyways, so what can you take out of this? That’s up to you. If you were my mom taking my emptied tin lunchbox and asking, “So Ryan, what did you learn in school?” I would say, “Well…Today, I learned that my teacher is nice *kekeke*,” but apart from that, I would usually share something interesting such as this. One of the valuable lessons could be: to rationalize the ‘teaser’ shopping offers. You don’t have to know the true psychology behind every coupon or bonus you get, but questioning them may help you refrain from experiencing buyer’s remorse, especially for the compulsive shoppers.

Side Note/Blog Outtake: You know what would be super awesome/dorky? Getting my hands on evaluative research behind Facebook features like the ‘like’ button. Nerd alert: The ‘like’ button and Facebook features alike that are taken at face value and for granted may actually suggest research on how this generation is widely accepting social networking. From a historical perspective, early newspapers have been used to impose nationalism in developing countries but they also instilled imagined communities between people of far distances—with the help of a standardized language and instilling a notion of ‘us’ as a ‘nation.’ There has to be some grounds laid out and social processes that shaped our brains to accept social networking as a pervasive part of our everyday life in order for us to experience real-life consequences from imagined, shared events.

2010-03-02T12:47:00.001-08:00

Rather than being called narcissists, can baby boomers be seen as a generation of realists adapting to social pressures of ageism and to attain "eternal youth" in order to live a secure life (ex: getting and keeping a job for looking younger)?

Communio Manifestoon

2009-04-20T21:41:00.000-07:00

Watch this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NbTIJ9_bLP4

It's a brilliant video whether you agree with Communism or not, but it does put Capitalism into perspective and gives a good sum of Marx.

Consider this: Keep in mind that Communio Manifesto was specifically written about the 1848 revolutions as part of a historical progress, what would Marx say about the demonstrated forms of Communism? What is Communism?

I wanna be a Sunday school teacher for Obama Youth

2009-01-23T00:33:00.001-08:00

Since Obama became President, my brain cells are suddenly activated. Now I can be a good father, or plant some trees, stop giving the finger, flush the toilet after taking a piss, or maybe even turn off my lights.

A friend of mine makes a good point: "I am a vigorous Obama supporter; I campaigned for him, I knocked doors for the campaign and I was elated to see him inaugurated today.

This goes too far. I will not pledge to serve any President. The iconography and glorification of him smacks of personality cult and loses sight of the fact that political progress was supposed to be about being a responsible citizen of the world and wanting to do right by each other, not to glorify or server our leaders. They serve US, not the other way around."

2009-01-13T23:11:00.000-08:00

James Bryant: "I would like to retire in the Philipines one day."

Ryan: "Well, you gonna need a job first."

2009-01-11T14:08:00.000-08:00

Reality is under our feet
And the feet of the blind
Hope, to some people
It is for the naively optimistic
For some others
Hope is all they have

Convo with Mom

2008-12-15T14:29:00.001-08:00

My Mom recently turned 50.

Ryan: "Mom, why do you get a new purse each month? Why can't you save up for a very nice-looking one?"

Mom: "Because I don't buy new clothes. Clothes are so ugly these days, they don't look good on me."

Great attitude! :)

I like this Rachel girl

2008-11-24T22:24:00.000-08:00

(So I was looking at a friend's profile picture and I found one of the comments worthy to share)
"You can't be serious. This world is getting beyond ridiculous...What this sign is really saying is that Dogs poop and bark, picnics are not wild and free, birds should get over the fact that we took over their natural habitat, and that strangers are waiting to snatch up children at random and commit horrible crimes unto them. FOR EVERYONE'S SAFTEY, PLEASE JUST WATCH TV AND EAT FAST FOOD AND DON'T GO OUTSIDE UNLESS IT'S TO SHOP FOR BULLSHIT YOU DONT NEED AND POLLUTE MOTHER EARTH SOME MORE."- Rachel Trousdale

Photogenic much?

2008-08-14T17:07:00.000-07:00

2nd year of Kindergarten (special ed - language therapy for delayed development in communications...b/c I was Asian? go figure.)

It was like sunshine in my mouth...

2008-08-12T09:39:00.000-07:00

After lunch. In the elevator with "Joe," heading to 9th floor of UMAB.

Andrew: "You smell like crab."

Ryan: "At least I smell like t3h best crab cake in the world."

Yea yea...you wouldn't believe it. It was so good that I'd throw it up and eat it again. Go to Faidley's Seafood, next to the World Famous Lexington Market. Don't get the regular crab cake $5, but get 'the' All Lump crab cake for $15. They may call you 'baby' or 'love'. Tip them a dollar or two. Your hot sauce and napkins are on the table.

Faidley's is also well-known for their oysters...no prescriptions required. Tell your parents to try them or recommend this spot on their anniversary or 'missions trip.'

Today, In Andrew's Lab...

2008-08-11T09:25:00.000-07:00

Andrew chats with Sandy on the Meebo. Ryan sits on one of them office roller chairs and approaches Andrew.

*Andrew pauses and turns to me.*

Ryan: "Oh oops, you lost your train of thought."

*Ryan rolls away*

Ryan: "The love train of thought."

The Dark Knight, not a "superhero flick"

2008-07-21T16:44:00.001-07:00

To die is easy, but Batman lives to another burden. I dig him.

(And no, this isn't the post I've been working on. In fact, I wasn't working on anything, so I'll just chalk it up to my incessant laziness. Don't worry I'll be in Baltimore and NYC for the next 2.5 weeks. You'll hear from me about the trip.)

In Search of a Good Read?

2008-07-17T15:48:00.000-07:00

If you're running short on time or only have a minute or two, scroll down and read the text shaded in blue at least.
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Source: Center of Theological Inquiry - Reflections : Stanley Hauerwas "Dietrich Bonhoeffer on Truth and Politics"

Dietrich Bonhoeffer
on Truth and Politics

Outdated models of the relationship of science and theology
can be discarded in favor of a joint exploration into a common reality
some aspects of which will prove, in the end, to be ultimate, and thus divine.

By Stanley Hauerwas

About the Author: Stanley Hauerwas is the Gilbert T. Rowe Professor of Theological Ethics at the Divinity School of Duke University. Though he is often identified as an ethicist, his primary intent is to show in what ways theological convictions make no sense unless they are actually embodied in our lives. A graduate of Southwestern University, he earned his Ph.D. from Yale University and the D.D. from the University of Edinburgh. After 14 years on the faculty of the University of Notre Dame (1970-1984), he joined the faculty of Duke University in 1984, and served as Director of Graduate Studies from 1985-1991. Of his many books, perhaps the best known are The Peaceable Kingdom, A Community of Character, Suffering Presence, and (with Will Willimon) Resident Aliens: Life in the Christian Colony. His most recent books are Christians Among the Virtues, Wilderness Wanderings: Probing Twentieth Century Theology, and Sanctify Them In the Truth: Holiness Exemplified. He delivered the prestigious Gifford Lectureship at the University of St. Andrews, Scotland in 2001.

I. Bonhoeffer's Passion for Truth

It is not accidental that my account of Bonhoeffer as a political theologian makes him an ally of John Howard Yoder. Bonhoeffer, like Yoder, sought to recover the visibility of the church amid the ruins of Christendom from the beginning to the end of his life. To so interpret Bonhoeffer risks making him subject to the same criticism so often directed at Yoder—i.e., Bonhoeffer’s account of the church makes the church politically irrelevant. Those tempted to so criticize Bonhoeffer, of course, have to give some account for the political character of his life. For example, they might suggest that Bonhoeffer’s life was more political than his theology or that Bonhoeffer’s theology is particularly well suited for totalitarian contexts but fails to provide an adequate account of how Christians should live in democratic societies.

In this lecture I hope to counter those tempted to make these kind of criticisms by developing Bonhoeffer’s understanding of the relation between truth and politics. In short I will try to show that Bonhoeffer rightly understood that the gift the church gives to any politics is the truthful proclamation of the Gospel. As far as I know, Bonhoeffer’s understanding of truth and politics has seldom been commented on or analyzed. One of the reasons may well be the general assumption that truth and politics, particularly in democratic regimes in which compromise is the primary end of the political process, do not mix.¹ Yet I hope to show that Bonhoeffer saw clearly that such a view of politics abandons the political realm to violence.

I should be candid that (as we say in the South) I also have a dog in this fight. Because I am so influenced by Yoder I am often accused of abandoning the politics necessary to achieve relative justice.² My oft-made claim that the first task of the church is not to make the world more just but to make the world be more the world is interpreted as a call for Christians to withdraw from the world. By focusing on Bonhoeffer’s understanding of how the church serves the world by being God’s truthful witness, I hope to direct attention to the same theme in my own work. For it has always been my conviction, a conviction I believe I learned from Barth, that the character of a society and state is to be judged by the willingness to have the Gospel preached truthfully and freely.³ By drawing on Bonhoeffer’s understanding of the significance of truthfulness, I hope to show the political significance of the Christian refusal to lie.

Bonhoeffer was a relentless critic of any way of life that substituted agreeableness for truthfulness. For example in a speech he gave in 1932 at the Youth Peace Conference in Czechoslovakia, he attacked attempts to secure unity by focusing on “practical” issues rather than fundamental issues of theology. According to Bonhoeffer to ignore questions of theology, truth plays into the hands of the forces that the ecumenical movement was meant to counter. For example, Bonhoeffer observes that because there is no theology of the ecumenical movement, “ecumenical thought has become powerless and meaningless, especially among German youth, because of the political upsurge of nationalism.” ⁴ Bonhoeffer observes:

No good at all can come from acting before the world and one’s self as though we knew the truth, when in reality we do not. This truth is too important for that, and it would be a betrayal of this truth if the church were to hide itself behind resolutions and pious so-called Christian principles, when it is called to look the truth in the face and once and for all confess its guilt and ignorance. Indeed, such resolutions can have nothing complete, nothing clear about them unless the whole Christian truth, as the church knows it or confesses that it does not know it, stands behind them. Qualified silence might perhaps be more appropriate for the church today than talk which is very unqualified. That means protest against any form of the church which does not honour the question of truth above all things.⁵

Bonhoeffer saw little point to theological engagement if truth does not matter. He was, for example, quite critical of his fellow students at Union Theological Seminary. In his report of his study at Union in 1930-1, he noted that the upbringing and education of American students was essentially different from the education German students receive. According to Bonhoeffer, to understand the American student, you need to experience life in a hostel which produces a spirit of comradeship as well as a readiness to help one another. The unreservedness of life together, “the thousandfold ‘hullo’,” manifests the American desire before all else to maintain community. In America, in the tension between the attempt to say the truth and the will for the community, the latter always prevails. Fairness, not truth, becomes the primary commitment necessary to sustain community for Americans. As a result “a certain levelling in intellectual demands and accomplishments” shapes the life of the American educational institutions. Intellectual competition and ambition are lacking, making innocuous the work done in seminar, discussion, and lecture.⁶

Bonhoeffer’s views of his fellow students reflected his general account of American religious and political life. His observation that America represents a form of “Protestantism without Reformation” is often quoted, but why he thought such a characterization appropriate is seldom explored. Bonhoeffer thought the “Protestant fugitives” who came to America did not come to enact another struggle. Rather Protestants claimed the right “to forgo the final suffering in order to be able to serve God in quietness and peace . . . .In the sanctuary there is no longer a place for strife. Confessional stringency and intolerance must cease for the person who has himself shunned intolerance. With his right to flee the Christian fugitive has forfeited the right to fight. So, at any rate, the American Christian understands the matter.” ⁷

Because the American student of theology sees the question of truth primarily in the light of this understanding of community, preaching cannot aspire to the truthful proclamation of the Gospel. Rather “preaching becomes an edifying narration of examples, a ready recital of his own religious experiences, which are not of course assigned any positively binding character.” ⁸ As a result, the relation of denominations to each other in America is not one that represents a struggle for the truth in preaching or doctrine. One might think, Bonhoeffer reflects, that such a situation would be favorable for the possibility of the unity of the churches of Jesus Christ. If the struggle for truth no longer divides the church, then surely the unity of the church must already exist. Yet just the opposite is the case. “Precisely here, where the question of truth is not the criterion of church communion and church division, disintegration is greater than anywhere else. That is to say, precisely where the struggle for the right creed is not the factor which governs everything, the unity of the church is more distant than where the creed alone unites and divides the church.” ⁹

Christians came to America having fought hard to renounce confessional struggles. Subsequent generations born free of the battles for which their forebears fought no longer think it necessary to fight about anything. The struggle over the creed which occasioned the flight of their fathers and mothers becomes—for their sons and daughters—something that is itself unchristian. “Thus for American Christianity the concept of tolerance becomes the basic principle of everything Christian. Any intolerance is in itself unchristian.” ¹⁰ Because Christians in America have no place for the conflict truthfulness requires, they contribute to the secularization of society;¹¹ a society, moreover, which finds itself unable to subject politics to truth and the conflict truthfulness requires.¹² Tolerance becomes indifference and indifference leads to cynicism.

Bonhoeffer’s criticism of the American theology, education, and politics reflect his lifelong passion to speak the truth. For example, in a letter to Bishop Ammundsen on August 8, 1934 Bonhoeffer discusses the upcoming conference at Fano and the address he was to give. Bonhoeffer confesses he is more worried about those who identify with opposition to Hitler than with the German Christians. The former will be worried that they should not appear unpatriotic, but they must recognize that those that come together at Fano do so not as Germans, Danes, or Swiss but as Christians. Bonhoeffer continues:

Precisely because of our attitude to the state, the conversation here must be completely honest, for the sake of Jesus Christ and the ecumenical cause. We must make it clear—fearful as it is—that the time is very near when we shall have to decide between National Socialism and Christianity. It may be fearfully hard and difficult for us all, but we must get right to the root of things, with open Christian speaking and no diplomacy. And in prayer together we will find the way. I feel that a resolution ought to be framed—all evasion is useless. And if the World Alliance in Germany is then dissolved—well and good, at least we will have borne witness that we were at fault. Better that than to go on vegetating in this untruthful way. Only complete truth and truthfulness will help us now. I know that many of my German friends think otherwise. But I ask you urgently to appreciate my views.¹³

“Only complete truth and truthfulness will help us now” was not just a reflection of Bonhoeffer’s understanding of the challenge presented by the rise of Hitler. For Bonhoeffer, Hitler or no Hitler, the peace and justice any social order might try to achieve was impossible without truth. “There can only be a community of peace when it does not rest on lies and injustice.” ¹⁴ The mistake of Anglo-Saxon thought is the subordination of truth and justice to the ideal of peace. Indeed, such a view assumes that the very existence of peace is proof that truth and justice have prevailed. Yet such a view is illusory just to the extent that the peace that is the reality of the Gospel is identified with the peace based on violence. No peace is peace but that which comes through the forgiveness of sins. Only the peace of God preserves truth and justice. So “neither a static concept of peace (Anglo-Saxon thought) nor even a static concept of truth (the interpretation put forward by Hirsch and Althaus) comprehends the Gospel concept of peace in its troubled relationship to the concepts of truth and righteousness.” ¹⁵

For Bonhoeffer nothing less than the truth of the Gospel was at stake in the confrontation with Hitler. Bethge observes that Bonhoeffer’s famous radio address in 1933 which criticized the Fuhrer concept was not based on liberal democratic ideas, but rather reflected Bonhoeffer’s concern with authority.¹⁶ According to Bonhoeffer, in the past, leadership was expressed through the office of the teacher, the statesman, and the father, but now the “Leader” has become an end in himself. When leadership was based on office, leadership required commitment to standards that were public and therefore capable of some rational justification. But the new leadership is based on choice answering to nothing other than its own self-justification.¹⁷

Sociologically Bonhoeffer attributes this change to the breakdown of German society after the First World War. After the war the German people felt lost, dominated by techniques intended to dominate nature now turned against their makers, distrusting all political, philosophical, and religious ideologies, and overwhelmed by the insignificance of the individual confronted by the dull power of the mass. The significance of the individual and the possibility of real community seemed to be forever destroyed. “The individually formed, autonomous personality and the idea divorced from reality seemed to have gone bankrupt. And from this need there now arose the passionate call for a new authority, for association, for community.” ¹⁸ Hitler, the leader who exploited this hunger for significance, mocks God and in so doing becomes himself an idol no longer subject to truthful correction.

Bonhoeffer’s criticism of American religious and political life as well as his analysis of the rise of Hitler can make uncomfortable reading for some who admire his opposition to Hitler but do not consider Bonhoeffer’s own understanding of why Hitler must be opposed. Bonhoeffer’s assumption that truth matters makes him an unlikely ally of the widespread assumption that—given no one knows the truth—the best we can do ecclesially and politically is to be tolerant. Moreover, it may be objected that it is by no means clear what Bonhoeffer took truth to be. I hope to show the best way to respond to those that fear the “conservative” implications of Bonhoeffer’s passion for truth as well as his understanding of truth is to be found in his essay that appears in his Ethics, “What Is Meant By ‘Telling the Truth’?” Not only does this essay make clear that from the beginning to the end of his life truth mattered to Bonhoeffer, but even more importantly we see that he understood that far more significant than giving us a “theory of truth,” is giving us an account of what it means to be truthful.

2. Bonhoeffer on “Telling the Truth”

Joseph Fletcher claims Bonhoeffer’s essay, “What Is Meant By ‘Telling the Truth?’“is as radical a version of the situational method as any Christian relativist could call for.” ¹⁹ Fletcher’s description of Bonhoeffer’s position is so far off the mark I am tempted to call Fletcher a liar. He surely must have known better or, at least, be a better reader than his description of Bonhoeffer’s position seems to suggest. However given the mis-characterizations of positions so prominent in Fletcher’s work it may be a mistake to attribute to Fletcher the intentional deception Bonhoeffer thinks often characteristic of the liar; which is but a reminder that it is as least as difficult to describe lying as it is to learn to speak truthfully.

Fletcher may well have been misled by Bonhoeffer’s claim that “‘telling the truth’may mean something different according to the particular situation in which one stands. Account must be taken of one’s relationship at each particular time. The question must be asked whether and in what way a man is entitled to demand truthful speech of others.” ²⁰ It is also true that Bonhoeffer argues that in formal terms the description of the lie as a discrepancy between thought and speech is inadequate. There is a way of speaking which can be correct, but still a lie, i.e. when a notorious liar for once tells “the truth” in order to mislead or when a correct statement contains a deliberate ambiguity or omits something essential necessary to know the truth.²¹

Bonhoeffer’s account of the lie is determined by his understanding of reality. We are obligated to speak truthfully about reality but we must remember that reality names not only what is “out there” but our relation to what is “out there.” According to Bonhoeffer every word we speak should be true. To be sure, the veracity of what we say matters; but the relation between ourselves and others which is expressed in what we say is also a matter of truth or untruth. “The truthful word is not in itself constant; it is as much alive as life itself. If it is detached from life and from its reference to the concrete other man, if ‘the truth is told’without taking into account to whom it is addressed, then this truth has only the appearance of truth, but it lacks its essential character.” ²² Bonhoeffer observes that some may object to this understanding of truthfulness on the grounds that truthful speech is not owed to this or that individual person, but to God. Bonhoeffer responds that this is of course correct as long as one remembers that God is not a “general principle, but the living God who has set me in a living life and who demands service of me within this living life.” ²³

Bonhoeffer acknowledges that the concept of the living truth is dangerous just to the extent it may give the impression that the truth can be tailored to fit this or that situation, making it difficult to tell the difference between truth and falsehood. The complexity of Bonhoeffer’s account, however, does not lead him to equivocate about lying. For example, he says that one might think that the man who stands behind his word makes his word a lie or a truth, but that is not enough because “the lie is something objective and must be defined accordingly.” ²⁴

Bonhoeffer gives the example of a child who is asked in front of the class by a teacher if his father often comes home drunk. In fact, the student’s father does often come home drunk, but in answer to the teacher the child denies that the teacher’s description is true. According to Bonhoeffer, the child rightly lies in answer to a question that should have never been asked in a classroom. Bonhoeffer explains that “the family has its own secret and must preserve it,” which the teacher has failed to respect. Ideally the child would have the ability to answer the teacher in a manner that would have protected the family as well as the rule of the school. But that is to expect more from a child than should be expected. Bonhoeffer does not deny that “the child’s answer can indeed be called a lie; yet this lie contains more truth, that is to say, it is more in accordance with reality than would have been the case if the child had betrayed his father’s weakness in front of the class. According to the measure of his knowledge the child acted correctly. The blame for the lie falls back entirely upon the teacher.” ²⁵

It is against this background that we can appreciate Bonhoeffer’s claim that “telling the truth is something which must be learnt.” ²⁶ He acknowledges that this will sound shocking to anyone that thinks telling the truth depends on moral character and if we have a good character then not lying is child’s play. But if the ethical cannot be divorced from reality, then continual practice in learning to discern and appreciate reality is a necessary ingredient in ethical action. That we must learn to tell the truth, that we must develop the skills of description to tell the truth, is the background presumption necessary to understand Bonhoeffer’s remark that only the cynic claims “to speak the truth” at all times and places.

Bonhoeffer’s insistence that politics can never be divorced from truth is prismatically illumined by his understanding of cynicism. In a letter to Bethge in December, 1943 Bonhoeffer reports he is working on his essay on “What is ‘speaking the truth’?” in which he is trying to draw a sharp contrast between trust, loyalty, and secrecy and the “cynical” conception of truth. According to Bonhoeffer “anyone who tells the truth cynically is lying.” ²⁷ Yet cynicism is the vice that fuels the habits to sustain a politics that disdains the truth.

For example, in Letters and Papers From Prison Bonhoeffer writes to Bethge (December, 1943) describing a fellow prisoner who has simply come undone in prison. Bonhoeffer relates that this man now consults Bonhoeffer about every little thing as well as reporting to Bonhoeffer every detail of his life such as when he has cried. Bonhoeffer’s fellow prisoner simply has no life that he does not expose. This occasions in Bonhoeffer a remarkable reflection in which he tells Bethge he has been thinking again about what he wrote recently about fear:

I think that here, under the guise of honesty, something is being passed off as ‘natural’that is at bottom a symptom of sin; it is really quite analogous to talking openly about sexual matters. After all, “truthfulness” does not mean uncovering everything that exists. God himself made clothes for men; and that means that n statu corruptionis many things in human life ought to remain covered, and that evil, even though it cannot be eradicated, ought at least to be concealed. Exposure is cynical, and although the cynic prides himself on his exceptional honesty, or claims to want truth at all costs, he misses the crucial fact that since the fall there must be reticence and secrecy.²⁸

Bonhoeffer is quite aware that secrecy can also be the breeding ground of the lie. The reticence and the secrecy Bonhoeffer is intent on protecting is the reticence that sustains relationships such as marriage and the family that should not be subjected to the gaze sponsored by ideological formations. What concerns him is how language itself is debased, made incapable of truth, by its misuse in the interest of “community.” Each word, for example the word of command, which rightly is used in public service, must be rightly used if we are to be truthful. For example, commands—if used in the family—can sever the bonds of mutual confidence that sustains the trust crucial to family life.²⁹ But from Bonhoeffer’s perspective modern developments have rendered words incapable of truthful expression:

It is a consequence of the wide diffusion of the public word through the newspapers and the wireless that the essential character and the limits of the various different words are no longer clearly felt and that, for example, the special quality of the personal word is almost entirely destroyed. Genuine words are replaced by idle chatter. Words no longer possess any weight. There is too much talk. And when the limits of the various words are obliterated, when words become rootless and homeless, then the word loses truth, and then indeed there must almost inevitably be lying. When the various orders of life no longer respect one another, words become untrue.³⁰

It is against this background, moreover, we can appreciate how and what Bonhoeffer thought was at stake for the church in the confrontation with Hitler. As early as Act and Being, Bonhoeffer maintained that humans cannot place themselves into the truth without the help of revelation because the untruth of human self-understanding is only made apparent within the truth that revelation creates. Humans can only “recognize themselves as having been created anew from untruth for truth. But they recognize themselves as that only from within truth, within revelation—that is, in Christ, whether judged or pardoned.” ³¹ Accordingly “the lie is primarily the denial of God as He has evidenced Himself to the world. ‘Who is a liar but he that denieth that Jesus is the Christ?’(I John 2:22).” ³²

Lies are nothing less than contradictions of the word of God and the reality which is created by God. The purpose of our words, in unity with the word of God, is to “express the real, as it exists in God; and the assigned purpose of our silence is to signify the limit which is imposed upon our words by the real as it exits in God.” ³³ For Bonhoeffer, the source of the lie is always our penchant for abstraction. Therefore the true meaning of correspondence with reality is neither civility or opposition to the factual, but rather the attempt to understand reality without the real man. To attempt to live without Jesus Christ, the One before whom all factual reality derives its ultimate foundation and its ultimate annulment, is to live in “an abstraction to which the responsible man must never fall victim; it is to fail to make contact with reality in life; it is to vacillate endlessly between the extremes of servility and revolt in relation to the factual.” ³⁴

I do not think Bonhoeffer believes that every word we use must gain its immediate intelligibility from Christ. As Rowan Williams suggests, the truth to which Christological dogmas gesture is not so much a concern with rationality or comprehensive elucidation of all that is, but more with the “need to preserve the possibility of the kind of encounter with the truth-telling Christ that stands at the source of the Church’s identity.” ³⁵ The threat to truth for Christians comes not from the difficulty of developing an unproblematic correspondence theory of truth, but rather from the lies that speak to us disguised as truth. Those are the lies Bonhoeffer rightly feared made possible the rise of Hitler and the ongoing lies necessary to sustain Hitler in power. The failure of the church to oppose Hitler was but the outcome of the failure of Christians to speak the truth to one another and to the world.

3. Living in Truth

Some may find the account I have given of Bonhoeffer’s understanding of truth and politics troubling. The implications of Bonhoeffer’s understanding of truthfulness for politics could even suggest he favored a theocracy. Even though I do not share the general presumption that theocracy is a “bad idea,” ³⁶ Bonhoeffer remained far too Lutheran to entertain a theocratic alternative. For example, in his essay “The Church and the New Order in Europe,” written in 1941 in response to William Paton’s The Church and the New Order, Bonhoeffer observes that there is a new recognition that the political order also is under the Lordship of Christ. The political order, therefore, cannot be considered a domain which lives on its own terms apart from God’s plan. “The commandments of God indicate the limits which dare not be transgressed, if Christ is Lord. And the Church is to remind the world of these limits.” ³⁷ Accordingly the Church cannot and should not try to develop a detailed plan for post war reconstruction. Rather the church should remind the nations of the reality the commandments entail if the new order is to be a “true order.”

In particular, Bonhoeffer suggested that the “chaos” behind the war could not be overlooked if the new order was to be true and just. National Socialism was made possible because there was just enough justice in some of Germany’s claims against the “peace” established in the railway wagon at Compiegne to make credible Hitler’s presentation of himself as a prophet of justice.³⁸ For Bonhoeffer there is no way to the future that does not truthfully acknowledge the sins of the past.

Bonhoeffer saw clearly the challenge modern politics presents for those committed to truthfulness. His views on the politics of the lie we confront are quite similar to Hannah Arendt’s understanding of the lies associated with modern politics. Arendt observes that the politics of the lie we experience in our day is quite different than the traditional political lie. In traditional politics, by which I assume she means the kind of politics Machiavelli represented, the lie was assumed a necessity in diplomacy and statecraft to protect secrets or intentions that had never been made public or could not be made public.³⁹ In contrast the modern political lie deals not at all with secrets but what is generally known. For example Arendt calls attention to:

highly respected statesmen who, like de Gaulle and Adenauer, have been able to build their basic policies on such evident non-facts as that France belongs among the victors of the last war and hence is one of the great powers, and “that the barbarism of National Socialism had affected only a relative small percentage of the country.” All these lies, whether their authors know it or not, harbour an element of violence; organized lying always tends to destroy whatever it has decided to negate, although only totalitarian governments have consciously adopted lying as a first step to murder.⁴⁰

I believe Bonhoeffer’s passion for the truth meant he would have stood against the lies that speak through us in modernity—lies all the more powerful because we believe we speak them by our own volition. We are, after all, a free people. Moreover, we live in a manner that seems to make our lies true because we are so determined to make them true.⁴¹ The clarity of Bonhoeffer’s truthful witness to the truth was made possible by the clear evil he opposed. Yet such clarity is apparent only retrospectively. Most of Bonhoeffer’s fellow Christians did not see the truth with Bonhoeffer’s unflinching clarity.

In his book, Living In Truth, Vaclav Havel calls attention to the innocent act of a manager of a fruit and vegetable shop who puts in his window, among the onions and carrots, the slogan: “Workers of the world, unite.” Why, Havel asks, does the shop owner put the sign in his window? Is he genuinely enthusiastic about the possibility of the workers of the world uniting? Does he want to communicate his enthusiasm for this ideal to his fellow citizens? Does he have any idea what it might mean for workers to be so united?

Havel suspects the majority of shopkeepers who put such a sign in their window never think about what they are doing nor does the sign express their true opinions. The poster was delivered from the headquarters along with the onions. The shop owner put the sign in his window because he had always done so and if he did not he could get in trouble. Moreover the greengrocer thinks nothing is at stake because he understands that no one really believes what the slogan says. What is important is the subliminal message the sign communicates. Havel suggests the sign’s real message is: “I, the greengrocer XY, live here and I know what I must do. I behave in the manner expected of me. I can be depended upon and am beyond reproach. I am obedient and therefore I have the right to be left in peace.” ⁴²

To help us understand what is happening with the display of this sign, Havel suggests a thought experiment. Suppose the greengrocer had been asked to display the sign, “I am afraid and therefore unquestioningly obedient.” Even though the new sign expresses the truth, Havel observes that the greengrocer would be ashamed to display such a sign. He is, after all, a human being with some sense of his own dignity. The display of the sign “Workers of the world unite” allows the greengrocer “to conceal from himself the low foundations of his obedience, at the same time concealing the low foundations of power. It hides them behind the facade of something high. And that something is ideology.” ⁴³

I suspect most of us think there to be a great distance between the sign in the greengrocer’s window and the rise of National Socialism in Germany. Yet I think Bonhoeffer rightly saw that the Christian acceptance that truth does not matter in such small matters prepared the ground for the terrible lie that was Hitler. In order to expose the small as well as the big lies a community must exist that has learned to speak truthfully to one another. That community, moreover, must know that to speak truthfully to one another requires the time granted through the work of forgiveness. Such patient timefulness is a gift from the God the community believes has given us all the time we need to care for the words we speak to one another.⁴⁴ Any politics absent such a people quite literally is doomed to live lies that are the breeding ground of violence.⁴⁵ Bonhoeffer believed that the church is the sign God has placed in the windows of the world to make possible a truthful politics.

This means Bonhoeffer’s observations about the character of theological education in America are not what might be considered his personal prejudices. Rather they are a challenge to teacher and student alike that few things are more important than us holding ourselves as well as being held by the church to speak the truth. As odd as it may sound, given the accommodated character of the church in liberal societies, if the church does not itself preach the Gospel truthfully then politically we condemn ourselves and those to whom we are pledged to witness to what Bonhoeffer called “the void.” ⁴⁶ A sobering observation, but one that at least directs those of us who count ourselves Christian to the task God has given us, that is, to be a people capable of speaking truthfully to ourselves, to our brother and sisters in Christ, and to the world.⁴⁷

Notes

1 Hannah Arendt’s account of the relation between truth and politics remains one of the most interesting we have. According to Arendt, to look on politics from the perspective of truth—and by truth she meant “factual truth” —is to stand outside the political realm. She notes “truthfulness has never been counted among the political virtues, because it has little to contribute to that change of the world and of circumstances which is among the most legitimate political activities.” The Portable Hannah Arendt, edited with an Introduction by Peter Baehr. (New York: Penguin Books, 2000), p. 570. Arendt is not recommending lying in politics, but rather trying to explain why the political realm so often seems immune to truthfulness. She notes a politics that acknowledges the need for the existence of impartial institutions, such as universities, improves the possibility of truth to prevail in public (p. 571). Yet she observes such institutions remain exposed to all the dangers arising from social and political power.

2 See, for example, Jeffrey Stout’s appendix in the new edition of his Ethics After Babel (Princeton: Princeton University Press, 2001), pp. 341-58.

3 Barth challenged Hitler’s regime on grounds that Hitler was trying to determine what the church could preach. He did so from the conviction “that it is the preaching of justification of the Kingdom of God, which founds, here and now, the true system of law, the true State.” Karl Barth, Community, State, and Church, with an Introduction by Will Herberg. (Garden City, New York: Anchor Books, 1960), p. 126.

4 Dietrich Bonhoeffer, No Rusty Swords, translated by Edwin Robertson and John Bowden (New York: Harper & Row, 1965), p. 159.

5 Bonhoeffer, No Rusty Swords, p. 160.

6 Bonhoeffer, No Rusty Swords, p. 87.

7 Bonhoeffer, No Rusty Swords, pp. 102-103. Though these judgements about American Christianity come early in Bonhoeffer’s career, if the work in the Ethics is any indication he never changed his mind. For example, he contrasts the French and American revolutions, observing the latter was not based on the emancipation of man, the limitation of all earthly powers by the sovereignty of God. Yet the process of secularization in America is as advanced as that in Europe. Bonhoeffer suggests that “the claim of the congregation to build the world on Christian principles ends only with the total capitulation of the Church to the world, as can be seen clearly enough by a glance at the New York church registers. If this does not involve a radical hostility to the Church that is only because no real distinction has ever been drawn here (America) between the offices of Church and state. Godlessness remains more covert. And indeed in this way it deprives the Church even of the blessing of suffering and of the possible rebirth which suffering may engender.” Ethics, edited by Eberhard Bethge and translated by Neville Horton Smith. (New York: The Macmillan Company, 1962), pp. 40-41.

8 Bonhoeffer, No Rusty Swords, p. 88.

9 Bonhoeffer, No Rusty Swords, p. 96.

10 Bonhoeffer, No Rusty Swords, p. 103.

11 Bonhoeffer had little use for the kind of education available at Union Theological Seminary. He thought the “theological atmosphere” at Union was accelerating the process of secularization of American society. According to Bonhoeffer the criticism from Union directed at fundamentalists and “Chicago humanists” is necessary, but no basis is given for rebuilding after demolition. He was particularly critical of the students at Union who had turned their backs on all genuine theology in order to study economic and political organizations. Theology in America had been transformed into ethics. Even if Barth is studied, the basic suppositions of those who read him are “so inadequate that it is almost impossible for them to understand what he is talking about.” No Rusty Swords, p. 90.

12 In a diary entry dated June 24, 1939, Bonhoeffer observes “there hardly ever seem to be ‘encounters’in this great country, in which the one can always avoid the other. But where there is no encounter, where liberty is the only unifying factor, one naturally knows nothing of the community which is created through encounter. The whole life together is completely different as a result. Community in our (German) sense, whether cultural or ecclesiastical, cannot develop here.” Dietrich Bonhoeffer, A Testament to Freedom: The Essential Writings of Dietrich Bonhoeffer, edited by Geoffrey B. Kelly and F. Burton Nelson. (San Francisco: Harper/San Francisco, 1990), p. 498.

13 Bonhoeffer, No Rusty Swords, pp. 286-287.

14 Bonhoeffer, No Rusty Swords, pp. 168-169. John Paul II often sounds very much like Bonhoeffer just to the extent the Pope maintains no freedom is worth having that is not disciplined by the truth. Jean Bethke Elshtain draws on Bonhoeffer and John Paul II in her book Who Are We?: Critical Reflections and Hopeful Possibilities (Grand Rapids: Eerdmans, 2000). Elshtain rightly thinks Bonhoeffer and John Paul II to be allies, particularly given our current cultural challenges.

15 Bonhoeffer, No Rusty Swords, p. 169.

16 Eberhard Bethge, Dietrich Bonhoeffer: A Biography. (Minneapolis: Fortress Press, 1999), pp. 259-260. The address can be found in No Rusty Swords, pp. 190-204.

17 Bonhoeffer, No Rusty Swords, pp. 194-196.

18 Bonhoeffer, No Rusty Swords, p. 194.

19 Joseph Fletcher, Situation Ethics: The New Morality. (Philadelphia: The Westminster Press, 1966), p. 149.

20 Bonhoeffer, Ethics, p. 326.

21 Bonhoeffer, Ethics, p. 331. A fascinating exercise would be to compare Bonhoeffer’s account of lying with that of Augustine’s. On the surface Bonhoeffer seems to be denying Augustine’s account of the lie as the use of speech to say what I know is not the case in order to deceive. However I think Augustine’s careful analysis of lying, which may well involve silence, is much closer to Bonhoeffer’s account than would first appear. Though Bonhoeffer does not claim, as does Augustine, that one may never lie, the general direction of Bonhoeffer’s understanding of lying is quite similar to Augustine’s. For a subtle and compelling account of Augustine’s position see Paul Griffith, “The Gift and the Lie: Augustine on Lying,” Communi, 26 (Spring 1999), pp. 3-29.

22 Bonhoeffer, Ethics, p. 328.

23 Bonhoeffer, Ethics, pp. 326-327.

24 Bonhoeffer, Ethics, p. 332.

25 Bonhoeffer, Ethics, p. 330.

26 Bonhoeffer, Ethics, p. 327. In Culture and Value, G.H. von Wright, ed., trans. Peter Winch (Chicago: University of Chicago Press, 1977), p. 35e, Wittgenstein observes: “No one can speak the truth; if he has still not mastered himself. He cannot speak it—but not because he is not clever enough yet.”“The truth can be spoken only by someone who is already at home in it; not by someone who still lives in falsehood and reaches out from falsehood towards truth on just one occasion.” Wittgenstein, perhaps more than anyone, knew that speaking truthfully was a skill that not only required attention to what we say but how we say it. Moreover, we can only learn to speak truthfully when our pride has been defeated.

27 Dietrich Bonhoeffer, Letters and Papers From Prison (The Enlarged Edition), edited by Eberhard Bethge (New York: Touchstone, 1997), p. 163. This remark, like much else Bonhoeffer has to say, often sounds quite similar to some of Wittgenstein’s remarks about lying and how hard it is to avoid lying. For example in Culture and Value (p. 39e), Wittgenstein observes: “How hard I find it to see what is right in front of my eyes! You can’t be reluctant to give up your lie, and still tell the truth.” Later Wittgenstein comments “Someone who knows too much finds it hard not to lie.” A remark I suspect Bonhoeffer might appreciate.

28 Bonhoeffer, Letters and Papers From Prison, p. 158.

2Bonhoeffer, Ethics, p. 328. I suspect this kind of reflection is what informs Bonhoeffer’s observation in Letters and Papers From (p. 148) that husbands and wives should have the same mind about matters even in the literary sphere. He confesses that he and his fianceé Maria are not yet on the same wave length about writers. He worries that she reads poets such as Rilke he regards as “decidedly unhealthy.” Bonhoeffer’s attitudes about these matters can be interpreted as an exemplification of an unrepentant male point of view. Certainly it would have been interesting how Bonhoeffer’s views on these matters might have developed if he and Maria would have had the time to marry and live together. That said, I think he is right to think that it is extremely important that marriage provide the time for husbands and wives to discover common judgements about matters that matter.

30 Bonhoeffer, Ethics, pp. 329-330. Wendell Berry provides a contemporary complaint similar to Bonhoeffer’s observation about the degradation of our language. He observes that a movement may lose its ability to speak truthfully when its enemies preempt its language. His example is organic farming which became an end in itself making possible huge “organic” monocultures. This has made possible the attempt of the United States Department of Agriculture to label food that has been genetically engineered as well as irradiated to be called organic. Berry comments, “Once we allow our language to mean anything that anybody wants it to mean, it becomes impossible to mean what we say. When ‘homemade’ceases to mean neither nor less than ‘made at home,’then it means anything, which is to say that it means nothing.” In the Presence of Fear (Great Barrington ME: Orion Society Publication, 2001), pp. 34-35.

31 Dietrich Bonhoeffer, Act and Being, translated by H. Martin Rumscheidt (Minneapolis: Fortress Press, 1996), pp. 81-82.

32 Bonhoeffer, Ethics, p. 332.

33 Bonhoeffer, Ethics, p. 332.

34 Bonhoeffer, Ethics, p. 198. In the section of the Ethics in which he discusses the “Concept of Reality,” Bonhoeffer says, “Henceforth one can speak neither of God nor of the world without speaking of Jesus. All concepts of reality which do not take account of Him are abstractions.” p. 6l.

35 Rowan Williams, On Christian Theology (Oxford: Basil Blackwell, 2000), p. 82.

36 To his credit and for our instruction Allen Verhey has recently written an extremely intelligent analysis and defense of theocracy. See his Remembering Jesus: Christian Community, Scripture, and the Moral Life (Grand Rapids: Eerdmans, 2002), pp. 333-507.

37 Dietrich Bonhoeffer, True Patriotism, translated by Edwin H. Robertson and John Bowden (New York: Harper and Row, 1973), p. 109.

38 Bonhoeffer, True Patriotism, pp. 111-112.

39 For example, see Ruth Grant’s extremely subtle analysis of Machiavelli and Rousseau on the necessity of hypocrisy in her Hypocrisy and Integrity (Chicago: University of Chicago Press, 1997). Grant observes “While most in need of honesty as a political virtue, liberal democratic regimes are most likely to produce the conditions that undermine that virtue. Oddly enough, in light of these reflections on the thoughts of Machiavelli and Rousseau, liberalism can be criticized not for being hypocritical, but for refusing to acknowledge the necessity of hypocrisy. At the outset, we noted the peculiar susceptibility of liberal democracies to charges of hypocrisy. This is a function of both aspects of what I have called the ‘paradox of democracy’; liberal democratic regimes make particularly strong claims to be able to provide open and honest political processes at the same time that those processes are structured so as to increase dependencies conducive to hypocritical political behavior.” p. 176. Bonhoeffer might well agree with Grant’s contention that some forms of hypocrisy may not only be necessary but justified in democratic regimes, but I do not think he would regard that as a “good thing.”

40 Arendt, The Portable Hannah Arendt, p. 565.

41 Arendt tells the medieval anecdote about the sentry that was given to practical jokes who one night sounded the alarm just to give his townsfolk a scare. Everyone rushed to the walls. As a result he was the last one to rush to the walls. Arendt comments that the story illustrates how hard it is to lie to others without lying to oneself. She comments “The tale suggests to what extent our apprehension of reality is dependent upon our sharing the world with our fellow-men, and what strength of character is required to stick to anything, truth or lie, that is unshared. In other words, the more successful a liar is, the more likely he will fall prey to his own fabrications.” The Portable Hannah Arendt, p. 566. Wittgenstein remarks that “nothing is so difficult as not deceiving oneself.” Culture and Value, p. 34e.

42 Vaclav Havel, Living in Truth, edited by Jan Vladislav (London: Faber and Faber, 1986), p. 42.

43 Havel, Living In Truth, p. 42.

44 For a powerful account on the importance of word care for Christians see Stephen Fowl, Engaging Scripture (Oxford: Blackwell, 1998), pp. 161-171. One of the offices John Howard Yoder thought crucial for the church was what he called “agents of linguistic self-consciousness.” He noted, however, that this is a dangerous office in the church because the tongue is hard to govern. The demagogue, the poet, the journalist, the novelist, the grammarian, are all in the business of steering society with the rudder of language. The problem is that too often concepts become reified by such people because it is through such concepts they make themselves indispensable. Therefore Yoder urges the teacher to watch for the “sophomoric temptation” to make verbal distinctions without substantial necessity. The Priestly Kingdom: Social Ethics as Gospel (Notre Dame: University of Notre Dame Press, 2001), pp. 32-33.

45 For a fascinating and powerful account of the relationship between lies and violence, see Robert Dodaro, OSA, “Eloquent Lies, Just Wars and the Politics of Persuasion: Reading Augustine’s City of God in a ‘Postmodern’World,” Augustinian Studies, 25, (1994), pp. 77-138. Dodaro argues that Augustine saw the lies that shaped Roman politics and political leaders drew their intelligibility from the attempt to beat death by achieving political glory that would insure immortality. Dodaro thinks the same process is at work in our own politics as exemplified in attempts to justify the Gulf War. An analysis of relationship between the acknowledgment of death, our ability to live truthful lives, and violence would be extremely informative. For example, Bonhoeffer observes “the miracle of Christ’s resurrection makes nonsense of that idolization of death which is prevalent among us today. Where death is the last thing, fear of death is combined with defiance. Where death is the last thing, earthly life is all or nothing. Boastful reliance on earthly eternities goes side by side with a frivolous playing with life . . . The drastic acceptance or rejection of earthly life reveals that only death has any value here. To clutch at everything or to cast away everything is the reaction of one who believes fanatically in death.” Ethics, pp. 16-17. And, of course, where death is everything, violence cannot be kept at bay.

46 Bonhoeffer saw clearly that “the void” becomes possible as the alternative to Christianity. In the extraordinary story he tells in the section of the Ethics, “Inheritance and Decay,” he rightly suggests that “it was only from the soil of the German Reformation that there could spring a Nietzsche.” (p. 28) In a manner that anticipates recent “post-modern” doubts about reason, Bonhoeffer notes that “contempt for the age of rationalism is a suspicious sign of failure to feel the need for truthfulness. If intellectual honesty is not the last word that is to be said about things, and if intellectual clarity is often achieved at the expense of insight into reality, this can still never again exempt us from the inner obligation to make clean and honest use of reason.” (p. 34) Finally he notes, “Luther’s great discovery of the freedom of the Christian man and the Catholic heresy of the essential good in man combined to produce the deification of man. But, rightly understood, the deification of man is the proclamation of nihilism.” p. 39. For Bonhoeffer’s explicit use of the language of “the void,” see p. 44 of the Ethics.

47 Wittgenstein observes, “You cannot write anything about yourself that is more truthful than you yourself are. That is the difference between writing about yourself and writing about external objects. You write about yourself from you own height. You don’t stand on stilts or on a ladder but on your bare feet.” Culture and Value, 33e. This remark is extremely important if what Christians believe is true—namely, we can only know the truth about ourselves by receiving it as a gift from God. So we can never trust our “truth,” but rather must continually look to that truth that is God if we are to truthfully see ourselves.

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